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I went to bed really early last night as the day had worn me out, I was cool as a cucumber at court but I will tell you being questioned in a court room puts you under just a bit of stress and the heat, my God the heat has been off the friggin charts lately. I can’t get shit down in the yard as the heat is to much for me and humidity, shit you can ring your shirt out when you come back in the house. It looks like rain this morning and it’s one of those mornings you just want to lie bed.

I got up before the alarm at 7 don’t know why I got up but I really must get shit done around here, I’ve got three baskets of clothes to put away, the shelves in the closet, come up with someway to hang my shoe holders and a bunch of other shit. I hate this shit as there is like a never ending list around here. I want to put the screws in the ceiling fan blades and start using that sucker again. It rotates and keeps the air moving from the ceiling to the floor.

It’s a different type of fan and when I showed it to Bob he said “I don’t want that piece of shit in my house”, and then we were at the lumber yard and they had one and when I showed him he though it was the coolest thing he had had ever seen. He was an asshole, what can I say? Just because he is no longer with us doesn’t mean he still isn’t an asshole, he will always be an asshole to me because he did so many anal things.

I like waking up feeling good because I usually wake up feeling kind of lazy but that’s me anyway, I’ve been really lazy after trying to get shit done around here. It’s hard for me with this bad back as it hurts so damn much to do anything for to long. Janet, hell Janet she is like “pull my string and I never will stop” and the woman is 70. She is so damn funny and so gregarious and great for me to be around as it rubs off on me. The type of people we hang around everyday are the type of people we become, or at least I do, we tend to mimic anyone we spend a lot of time with that is why older people tend to look alike, or at least to me.

I have pondered this thought for sometime and I am not crazy, nope thought I was but I’m not and I have to look at good even if I am slightly fucked up sometimes. I get social security disability benefits, great healthcare dirty cheap, I get to stay home and collect two paychecks every month. I can do what ever I want and go where ever I want whenever I want. Now that isn’t such a bad deal for being labeled as crazy. Crazy like a fucking fox I will tell you, I am no dummy and I won’t get into now but all I can say is there is always a ways and means to change your life and we do not have to live in our own personal depression.

I am smiling this minute thinking about how Janet has changed my outlook on life and how I feel so damn free, we joke so much that it makes me laugh and laughter is great medicine. Everyone needs to let go of their worries and just let life happen and unfold as it should. We cannot change a thing so let’s just call it good and let life happen. It’s time to take a serious look at how to become one with yourself and reduce your stress.

After you read this I do hope you try it as you will find much less stress that you feel, now sit on the floor with legs crossed, arms by your side, close your eyes and rotate your head three times one way and then three the other way. Do the same thing except up and down. No keep your eyes closed and breath in through your nose raising your arms as high as you can and then exhale through your mouth lowering your arms. Do this three times very slowly. I forgot to add that you need to clear your mind, pretend it is a chalkboard and erase everything on it and now it is blank.

You have to really focus on yourself when you do this because your mind must be blank and when you are through I do believe you will feel more at peace with yourself and less stress. If you don’t then you can fucking shoot me, ok? If you were here it would work so much better as I would be talking to you slowly and holding your hands in mine and I would be walking you through a field filled with wild flowers as the sun was going down and the evening breeze became cooler.

It’s all visualization therapy and it really works to reduce stress, pain, depression hell you name it when I’m through with you, you won’t even recognize yourself as you will new. I’m not a guru and I do not have special superman powers but I have the desire to learn and read and try thing that could help me anyway possible. I gladly share those with you as you can benefit from the power of understanding as well as love.