Things are not always what they seem; the first appearance deceives many; the intelligence of a few perceives what has been carefully hidden.
Who speaks to the instincts speaks to the deepest in mankind, and finds the readiest response. –
Reason is not automatic. Those who deny it cannot be conquered by it.
I hold it true, whate‘er befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most; ‘Tis better to have loved and lost Than never to have loved at all.
We must remember that Satan has his miracles, too.”
There are two kinds of pain that tear me apart. One, is the loss of a person I have loved and the other, a loss of a pet. The last two months I have spent trying to get my sick miniature yorkie better to no avail.
He’s been so sick with bloating and he had the same thing in 2016. This time he just got sicker and sicker and numerous vet appts didnt help. I bought special food, special medication and I gave him a special kind of love.
As the days past he got thinner and thinner, wouldn’t eat, couldn’t keep food down and he became quite restless. Yes, I did pet hospice as I did everything I could to keep him comfortable.
The last days of his life were pure hell for me as my own selfish desire to keep him with me kept me from making a decision I should of made at least a day ago. His breath was terrible and he originally weighed 7.5lbs. but he had dwindled down to 4.4lbs.
I did hospice for my husband and my grandmother so Im able to understand the human body will purge itself from the intestinal area as well as the stomach. I didnt care when my husband threw up blood all over me and my Michael puked all over.
Michael and Gabriel are brothers and now that Mikey is gone Gabey is wondering where he is. How do you explain to your pet that their sibling or mate is no longer? I hold Gabey close and tell him Mikey is in a better place and one day we shall meet again.
I havent cried openly since 2011 when my husband passed and I just burst into tears when I think of Gabey and I going for walks without Michael. My daughter told my son she wished she had the money to buy me another puppy but that just will not do as far as Gabey is concerned.
He’s about a 5 lb. ball of fierceness as well as love. He thinks he’s huge dog when he is nothing more than a little spec. My pets are my service pets, they serve me when I am in need of love, affection, am depressed or sad.
In the United States pets now can be certified as service pets which means they cannot be denied on a plane, train, bus ect. They can live in apartments without any extra fees and they cannot be denied entry. You can actually go online and for $100.00 get your pet certified as a service pet or you can go to your doctor and mental health professional.
I knew I had to let Michael go but my heart just couldn’t give him the freedom to move to another existence. I tried feeding him with a syringe and I carried him outside to go potty. He finally became very restless which told me he was in pain and I had to quit being selfish.
The vet told me she thinks he might have had cancer as he was so thin and so sick. I gave him some cbd oil which made him comfortable on Tuesday but Wednesday I had to finally come to terms with what I needed to do to give him relief.
As I type this the tears spring from my eyes and down my face as my nose runs and all I can think of is my beloved Michael. He was so sweet and when I would get up off the couch he would go sit where I had just been. He was loved and he knew it and he loved me and I knew that as well.
Only time will help heal my broken heart and now I will lavish all the love I had for Michael onto Gabriel. The pain I am feeling is all consuming and I hate it, yes I hate having to lose a pet but death is part of life as I know only to well.
más allá del miedo yace la libertad
There are times when the mind is dealt such a blow it hides itself in insanity. While this may not seem beneficial, it is. There are times when reality is nothing but pain, and to escape that pain the mind must leave reality behind.