He sat back on the lounge with a drink in his hand. He realized he drank too much but that’s the only way he could make it through the day.
Like so many others he found himself with wondering eyes and a deflated go. He fell for a girl that was thirty years his junior.
He fell hard and left home, moved in with his girlfriend and filed for a divorce.
It started out with innocent flirting and before he knew it he was flying high emotionally.
He left the safety of his lair to something quite exciting and mind boggling.
This girl was the eye of the hurricane that destroyed his family. She was the cause, or so some thought that lead him astray.
Truth be known he was totally besotted and just like so many middle aged men his dick lead him.
He realized he didn’t want to remarry or have more kids. He had already crossed those bridges. It would be a matter of time before she started the “let’s get married” bullshit and he wanted no part of it.
He missed his family and decided to try to breathe new life into his marriage.
What they both knew to be true is they always had to be doing something or going somewhere. They didn’t know how to be together and enjoy the silence.
His wife was happy to have him back in the fold and he had enjoyed moments but he wasn’t happy no he just played the part.
He would think about his life and think about his ex mistress. He wondered what she was doing with her life and he admitted she had been fun but just wanted to much from him.
His wife had gone to great lengths to give him a birthday to remember, a surprise party to celebrate his years on this earth.
Truth was he already knew about the party. He just didn’t want to hurt his wife so he kept his trap shut and dove into the bottle.
His golden years would bring opportunities like celebrity jeopardy or dancing with the stars, maybe a commercial like viagra.
One would think that he would change his ways but he still loved pornography and reading erotica both of which controlled his thoughts.
He still loved the fantasies his mind could conjure up. He read blogs and visited his porn sites regularly.
He knew he drank to much which helped him forget how truly unhappy he was but what else was there to do?